Love.

Complicated... isn't it?
Love is a mystery... so difficult to comprehend, yet so simple in its very essence...

One moment it can be as beautiful as a rainbow after a storm, and yet be like darkness, ready to sweep you over the edge of nothingness...


I just realized that I cry so much more easily nowadays...
Nope, its not the amount of animes that I'm watching... but... I guess now is one of my more volatile mood swings...

For those that talked to me recently, you'd find that I'm so much more talketive and happy then usual, yet when I'm alone... I lose myself...


I wish I have more time to spend with him.... Schools, studies, commitments are tearing us further and further away from each other.... my open hands can only grasp so much...

He's worried that he might affect my results, as he knows that I place a large emphasis on my studies....
But there are times when I just look at my notes and tears just blurs everything.... Paranoia engulfs every inch of my body... the pessimistic drive in me takes over and forces me to the verge of depression again...

whats the use of studying when you can't absorb anything?....

I miss him..... alot...

arrgh... i hate these mood swings... it just has to come at all the wrong times...